An eventful date

It's been long since my bf and I went for an outdoor date. Usually we go libraries, shopping centres and other air conditioned places. Maybe that's why both of us end up so tired. Not used to going out so long and playing so hard.

Firstly, we went to a charity bazaar near eunos mrt. I got bags, another chinese style fan :P, and the best buy of the day, these four colourful dice!

I'm planning to keep two and give Jerine n JezC one die each. However, girls, you need to wait til I made up my mind which two i am keeping for myselves. :P

After lunch, we went East Coast Park to fly kite.

I couldn't figure out how to use bluetooth to send my photos from hp to com, so i just use camera to take it again, that's y its so blurry. :P That's the my bf with the kite.


When it was my turn, i got too close to the tree, the string got caught on it. Lucky we managed to get the kite down. The ironic thing is, the kite flew to the highest pt when the string was caught on the tree. Looks like the tree is the best kite flyer among us. :P


After that, we went cycling on a double bike. My bf cant cycle so i have to take the front. Its my first time at the front of a double bike. And i'm not a particularly gd cyclist either, it took me abt 25 mins before i more or less got the hang of it. And 10 mins before our 1 hr was up, we crashed. The basket they lent us to put my bag was at the front of the bike. It took most of burden, it got damage beyond repair, even the bike store uncle was stunned and waive off our offer to pay for it, i guess he kinda pity us. We were really lucky tho, we are more or less unharmed.


We decided that was enuf for a day after crashing, and went home after dinner.


Today was fun, but I think i'll like to take another long break from outdoor dates. :P


Oh ya, one last thing. I especially bought spf 130+ sunblock, and I still got sunburnt! and you wont believe the place I got sunburnt. Its a thin stretch of skin, right above my upper lip! Sigh... I thot I was careful enuf already.

long time no see

Its been a while since my last blog. And tho I actually wanted to update about prac and all. I think I will forget all that and write something else.

I am becoming more and more tactless and blunt. I have no idea how to talk courteosly anymore. I cant stand it that I am being rude, even by my own standards. But I think I lost the ability to say things nicely and tactfully and still get what I mean across.

Maybe I should just practice smiling. And sit and smile at the world around me. Surely if I practise enough, I should be able to smile without offending anyone, right? If I dun talk, I dun need to be disappointed in myself.

Sigh... why do I only really like to write/type when I am moody? My blog is getting more and more depressing. Maybe I should delete it and start over. Or maybe I should consider practising how to clasp my hands elegantly, so I can stop myself for writing such stuff, while pretending nothing is wrong.

Nobody likes a gloomy person, and no one likes a person who doesnt like themselves. I noe all that. So why am I still unable, to make myself like me?

I wish I were like gold or silver. So someone can come along and melt me down, and mold me again. However, relying on others mean I am not likely to turn out the way I wanna be. Is it possible for anything to mold itself? Or is there someone whom I can trust, to mold me into what I wanna be? Lord pls grant me the strenght to change myself.

Sigh... I wish I can happily recite the poem from the p3 chinese textbook, where the kid happily concludes that it is most interesting to be a new me. Or maybe bcas kids arent suppose to noe how difficult that is, so they are able to happily recite it. Or they just havent thot abt that yet.

Goals are good, target setting is gd, but reaching it is not easy. You need to plan, prepare and practice before it can succeed, and for my case I always seem to stumble at the preparation stage. Lousy, cant even walk properly. Drop on all fours and proceed in a crawl. as long as you dun give up you can reach it some day. And since the center of gravity will be lower and its easy to balance on fours then on twos, maybe I can finally proceed, without stumbling too much.

Sheesh... comforting myself is fine and all, but I myself noe i am already crawling. If I dun manage to pick myself up soon, I am going to end up lying on the ground. Oh well, maybe I can try convince myself to try rolling in order to move forward then.

An Eventful Day

My practicum school invited trainees along to the flyer and I took up the offer with glee.... Flyer is a 30 mins ride, and costs $30. Since its free, why shd I pay a dollar a min to enjoy the view? Anyway... photos below...



After coming back, I actually felt rather energised. Therefore, I went on a rather long walk. I think I took more pictures then.



that's it

Tarot Reading

Astrology.com offered a read birthday tarot reading. Was interested so I claimed it. And the Moon card turned up again... accompanied by the Devil somemore. Guess its going to be a hell of a yr. Pls pardon the pun. Am brain dead now. I've been surviving on abt 4 hrs of slp a day since practicum starts. The only exception is friday and saturday nights, cas I tend to slp off most of sat and sun mornings.

Am used to slping ard midnight or 1 am while in hostel. So I cant seem to fall aslp earlier.

Hmm.... sigh... wanted to blog properly but my brain just died. Oh well, I gotta get back to work. Laters......

Graduation

Well... ok, not really. Tho it feels like one. Yesterday, I finish the last grp project I had to do for my University days and moved out from my room in the hostel. The night before that, my othello team threw a small, informal gdbye party for me. Though I'm really only leaving sch to go for practicum and I wont graduate till ard June. It feels like this phase of my life has already ended.

And so, as cliche and old fashion and mushy as this is going to be, I really would like to thank a few ppl.

Thanx to my ten classmates who were with me for 4 yrs. U people are the one who made my 4 yrs of lessons very enjoyable. Truly, I think it was very lucky that there are so few ppl taking our course, else we wouldnt have be such a close knitted grp. It was really fun being ur classmate, and I hope all of us will continue to keep in touch, even after we officially graduate and move on to become permanent teachers in different schs.

Special Thanx to my two gd frens, Jerine and JezC. We have been the trio in this odd number class for so long, and did so many projects together. Thank you for all the times we work hard together, for picking things up when I slack or mess up and for being more then merely gd group mates. Jerine, I'll see you on Monday, pls continue to look out for me. JezC, keep in touch, dun you dare disappear on me. Tho if i miss u enuf i think i will pop by the CC on Sunday to wait for you all to come down and meet u for lunch, hehe... Let's play table tennis again sometime soon.

Special Thanx as well to Kor Iceman who always looked after us. Keep in touch, I will be following ur blogs. ^^

Thanx to my othello team, both the seniors who have graduated before me and the current batch. U all noe i'm not really one for hall activites. But our team is really great. Thank you all for putting up with me and working hard with me. I dun regret a single moment or effort that I spent on the team, and each and everyone of u is someone I would be glad to call a fren (yes, even Rusdi :P). We won gold last IH! So proud of our team. Keep up the good work ppl, and may hall 15 othello team continue to reign. Hehe... :P

Special Thanx to Adi, Shimon and Anshu, who were in the same batch with me. Thanx to Adi for being a gd partner, and for assuming captain position in the first place. I'm really sry for being so weak to stress, and thank you for ur willingness to share the burden. Thank you, Shimon, for always being reliable support, even though u werent officially holding any post you always looked after the team. And tho no one really mentioned it, you were the one who found most of the new members who made up the current team. So it really thanx to you that we continue to have a team at all. Thanx to our joker, Anshu, even tho you are the one who provokes me the most. It was fun having you on our team. And truly, i'm really surprise when Adi told me you suggested the gift and all for me. That is truly a sweet gesture and i'm sry u weren't there so i can thank you personally. Tho its probably for the gd, since you prob make some wise crack at me if i tried to. :P

Special Thanx as well to Daniel, who took over my job as IC. Truly you absolutely outshine me. I was the IC for two yrs, but for the 1st year of that, I wasnt very gd at my job. I mainly relied on Wencong to tell me what to do. Yet you started picking up the role immediately, once you decided you would like to take over my post. And you did a gd job even before you officially became IC. I had no cause to worry at all after handing things over to you. At least, not about whether you can do your job. I was worried how were you gonna manage when you needed to pick up the slack. :P But you managed that as well. You're a much more capable IC than I was. Oh ya, make sure KC reads this. If he dares to neglect looking after you and not getting u a rm, I'll spam his email. :P

Belated Thanx to Zheng Xiang and Wencong, who taught me, looked after me and groomed me into leadership position on the team. Thank you both for being like Big Brothers to me, and I'm sry for not initiating any contact. >.< Maybe I shd email the link to this post to you all, But I could nv get any email thru to Zheng Xiang. I hoped both of you are doing well at ur jobs.

Okay, I got too ........ for my own liking. Urgh... gave myself goosebumps. Signing off. :P

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Moon

People who follow my blog would prob remember a previous entry where i did a tarot card personality test and came up with the moon. Well... today I was looking up at the moon as I was on my way home, and it occurred to me I was like the moon in more than one way.

I'm sure the reason why the moon shines and changes shape is a commonly known fact but i'm going to be long-winded and explain again so pls bear with me. The moon does not produces its own light but rather acts like a mirror and reflects the light from the sun. When it is blocked by the earth, it appears to have changed its shape; on some days, we cant see the moon cas the earth has prevented it from reflecting any of the sun's rays.

In this aspect, I am very much like the moon. I am a person who doesnt have my own "light". When I can see the "sun" I am bright and happy, I appear to be confident and capable. Like how on the night of the full moon, the moon is round and glowing prettily, and people cant help but look up and admire it. When I am in "earth's" shadow, I am gloomy and depressing, I mope ard and whine and cant get anything done. Like a crescent moon which is easily hidden by the clouds and forgotten. There are also times where I fall into the sinkhole of depression and disappear, like on a night when no moon can be seen.

My moods are as plentiful as the phases of the moon, unfortunately they do not have such a regular pattern. And I must say its not hard to tell from recent entries, what kinda phase this "moon" is undergoing.

How ironic for me who has a bright and sunny name. For ppl who are confused, let me explain. My blogger name, dreamy shine, is partially taken from my english name Sunshine. See how ironic that is? To have a name that is bright and warm and happy but to be such a gloomy girl. Maybe I shd change my name, tho it doesnt really solve anything.

Oh well... tho my moods have no fixed pattern, but it does have as many phases as the moon. The night of full moon will come again and shine will shine once more.