When on another stroll and took every kitty in the neighbourhood that I came across. Scaring quite a few in my persistance to "capture" them :P But because of that, got a interesting photo of a kitty peeping at me thru a hole in the drain. hehe....
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Succumbed
Yours truly ended up on Facebook after all. Where peer pressure failed, curiosity conquered. This is forever goin to be one of my worst weakness. Exams ended, therefore, brought students to com lab, just to see wat they are interested in now (all the easier to bribe them with :P). And 50% went on facebook. Even China students, except they went on the chinese version which is known as happy farm.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Forest girls
Today's news reported that there is a new fad in japan known as the 'forest girls'. Such girls are natural as they do not chase after branded goods but prefer small shops, they enjoyed an afternoon reading away in the cafe and they like to go on walks with a camera to take pictures of nice stuff. I couldnt help but think, hey... those kinda sound like me. lol. guess wat peepz, im part of a new fashion culture! In fact, I can be considered a pioneer as i have been reading afternoons away since sec sch. :P hahaha....
The weird thing is how did this turn into a special fad in japan that is gaining so such popularity that shops come up with 'forest girls' fashion and merchandise? I mean, doesnt that go against the whole "natural" factor of the forest girls? I mean watever happened to not buying branded goods and visiting small shops?
The weird thing is how did this turn into a special fad in japan that is gaining so such popularity that shops come up with 'forest girls' fashion and merchandise? I mean, doesnt that go against the whole "natural" factor of the forest girls? I mean watever happened to not buying branded goods and visiting small shops?
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Back to the grindstone
Seeing students again after a one week break for them. me got no break. i wonder if they studied, though i guess not much bah... Dread seeing them tmr. cas SA2 just ard the corner.
I fell in love with a very cute set of books. A collection of mini stories. its called 60 篇感人小故事。So each book has 60 little stories. I bought 1, think its very nice, so bought 2 more, then today i went and bought 3 more. :) the 3 today is actually a gift from my bf, so sweet of him. he especially likes the 我要成功 book. The 1st book that got me so enchanted is called 穿越爱的迷途. The other books are called 宽容是这般灿烂，矛盾中的幽默，聪明就在这里，在你心里挂星星。Am I the only one who thinks that even the titles are super attractive already? hehe....
hmm..... when i have more time, i shall typed out one of the stories for a sharing... but for those who cant wait, you can find the books at 商务印书馆。The publisher is 万里机构。
I fell in love with a very cute set of books. A collection of mini stories. its called 60 篇感人小故事。So each book has 60 little stories. I bought 1, think its very nice, so bought 2 more, then today i went and bought 3 more. :) the 3 today is actually a gift from my bf, so sweet of him. he especially likes the 我要成功 book. The 1st book that got me so enchanted is called 穿越爱的迷途. The other books are called 宽容是这般灿烂，矛盾中的幽默，聪明就在这里，在你心里挂星星。Am I the only one who thinks that even the titles are super attractive already? hehe....
hmm..... when i have more time, i shall typed out one of the stories for a sharing... but for those who cant wait, you can find the books at 商务印书馆。The publisher is 万里机构。
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Deepavali
Deepavali is coming up and i got roped into dancing for that day!!! :< sigh....
Oh well, accepted fate already and now just trying to learn properly so i dun mess up on friday. So scary >.<...
Fun part is costume buying, will be going with one of the indian teachers today to buy a pujabi suit. And the bangles i bought n a spur of a moment last time will finally be of use. :P
Oh well, accepted fate already and now just trying to learn properly so i dun mess up on friday. So scary >.<...
Fun part is costume buying, will be going with one of the indian teachers today to buy a pujabi suit. And the bangles i bought n a spur of a moment last time will finally be of use. :P
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Children's day tmr.
Its children's day tmr. Today was hounded by greedy bloodsuckers. At least the primary one children are properly appreciative. Look at me with excited bright shiny eyes and thank me properly. The primary 3 just come across as greedy materialistic gluttons. Wonder what the upper primary will be like? Worse, i guess.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
common language
Centuries and more have been spent on trying find a common language so that people of the world can communicate and understand one another. But even after spending years learning and communicating with the same language, its still possible for people not to understand one another.
Its like how I've seen students read a whole passage fluently but are unable to get a simple question like "what did the main character do?". Even tho they can read every single word in the passage, and they can read the question without problem, they can still have no idea how to answer.
Today, my bf and I were reading up on an article about insurance. And there was this sentence in the passage. "Term insurance is a pay-as-you-go, no frills insurance." And it states that because of that, it is a better bargain than life insurance. Maybe I really am an idiot or something, but for the life of me I just do not understand what kind of insurance term insurance is by that statement.
Please dun try and explain what term insurance is to me, cas my bf already did. But it took quite a few mins and got both of us rather frustrated.
But what gets me is we are both reading English, which we have spent more than a decade on, and he can understand from that one statement and I cant. Sigh... Maybe its really just because I'm stupid or something, and perhaps I shd quit my job and study some more. Anyone noes a gd place to take an "English for dummies course"?
Its like how I've seen students read a whole passage fluently but are unable to get a simple question like "what did the main character do?". Even tho they can read every single word in the passage, and they can read the question without problem, they can still have no idea how to answer.
Today, my bf and I were reading up on an article about insurance. And there was this sentence in the passage. "Term insurance is a pay-as-you-go, no frills insurance." And it states that because of that, it is a better bargain than life insurance. Maybe I really am an idiot or something, but for the life of me I just do not understand what kind of insurance term insurance is by that statement.
Please dun try and explain what term insurance is to me, cas my bf already did. But it took quite a few mins and got both of us rather frustrated.
But what gets me is we are both reading English, which we have spent more than a decade on, and he can understand from that one statement and I cant. Sigh... Maybe its really just because I'm stupid or something, and perhaps I shd quit my job and study some more. Anyone noes a gd place to take an "English for dummies course"?
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Update
Not much time to write properly but I guess I shd update a bit.
I've graduated, and have began working for 3 mths or so.
I got bored pretty quickly and i cant wait for a break. Its coming tmr :)
I miss the othello guys from my hall, and my classmates and muh, and a bunch of other frens, but as usual, I'm super lazy to initiate contact.
I really miss the feeling of sleeping for 8 hrs a day, without waking up anytime in between.
I've graduated, and have began working for 3 mths or so.
I got bored pretty quickly and i cant wait for a break. Its coming tmr :)
I miss the othello guys from my hall, and my classmates and muh, and a bunch of other frens, but as usual, I'm super lazy to initiate contact.
I really miss the feeling of sleeping for 8 hrs a day, without waking up anytime in between.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Long time no see.
Hey peepz. Its been quite a while. I have so much things i suppose to blog on and never, but I havent been free. Not free now either. Just to share some news.
My Grandma passed away yesterday. so for the next few days I'll be busier even. Sigh, time to go. Till next time.
My Grandma passed away yesterday. so for the next few days I'll be busier even. Sigh, time to go. Till next time.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Bored
I have officially started work, and therefore, instead of enjoying the June Holidays like other students, I am currently in school. Yes, right now this very moment.
You must wondering, if that is so, y am I so free? Or I suddenly become so brave and dare to slack on the job, even tho I am a newbie.
The truth is, as a newbie, I simply do not have much work yet. My superior is away at meeting, and she was too busy to schedule work for me before she left. Other more experience senpais are simply too busy with their own jobs. There was one work for me to do, due on friday, but I finished it even before lunch. I'm not boasting, it truely is easily done. Its just that the senpais have more urgent work, so the deadline for this is long. Also, the sample will only be out tomorrow.
So now, I'm doing some personal stuff. Hopefully, I get a bit more things to do tmr. Else must wait til thurs when my superior come back, but unfortunately, i also going overseas that night. I wonder how am I going to find time to do it. Please dun email me my work on Friday, I wont have internet access overseas.... *cries*
You must wondering, if that is so, y am I so free? Or I suddenly become so brave and dare to slack on the job, even tho I am a newbie.
The truth is, as a newbie, I simply do not have much work yet. My superior is away at meeting, and she was too busy to schedule work for me before she left. Other more experience senpais are simply too busy with their own jobs. There was one work for me to do, due on friday, but I finished it even before lunch. I'm not boasting, it truely is easily done. Its just that the senpais have more urgent work, so the deadline for this is long. Also, the sample will only be out tomorrow.
So now, I'm doing some personal stuff. Hopefully, I get a bit more things to do tmr. Else must wait til thurs when my superior come back, but unfortunately, i also going overseas that night. I wonder how am I going to find time to do it. Please dun email me my work on Friday, I wont have internet access overseas.... *cries*
Sunday, May 17, 2009
An eventful date
It's been long since my bf and I went for an outdoor date. Usually we go libraries, shopping centres and other air conditioned places. Maybe that's why both of us end up so tired. Not used to going out so long and playing so hard.
Firstly, we went to a charity bazaar near eunos mrt. I got bags, another chinese style fan :P, and the best buy of the day, these four colourful dice!
I couldn't figure out how to use bluetooth to send my photos from hp to com, so i just use camera to take it again, that's y its so blurry. :P That's the my bf with the kite.
When it was my turn, i got too close to the tree, the string got caught on it. Lucky we managed to get the kite down. The ironic thing is, the kite flew to the highest pt when the string was caught on the tree. Looks like the tree is the best kite flyer among us. :P
After that, we went cycling on a double bike. My bf cant cycle so i have to take the front. Its my first time at the front of a double bike. And i'm not a particularly gd cyclist either, it took me abt 25 mins before i more or less got the hang of it. And 10 mins before our 1 hr was up, we crashed. The basket they lent us to put my bag was at the front of the bike. It took most of burden, it got damage beyond repair, even the bike store uncle was stunned and waive off our offer to pay for it, i guess he kinda pity us. We were really lucky tho, we are more or less unharmed.
We decided that was enuf for a day after crashing, and went home after dinner.
Today was fun, but I think i'll like to take another long break from outdoor dates. :P
Oh ya, one last thing. I especially bought spf 130+ sunblock, and I still got sunburnt! and you wont believe the place I got sunburnt. Its a thin stretch of skin, right above my upper lip! Sigh... I thot I was careful enuf already.
Firstly, we went to a charity bazaar near eunos mrt. I got bags, another chinese style fan :P, and the best buy of the day, these four colourful dice!
I'm planning to keep two and give Jerine n JezC one die each. However, girls, you need to wait til I made up my mind which two i am keeping for myselves. :P
After lunch, we went East Coast Park to fly kite.
I couldn't figure out how to use bluetooth to send my photos from hp to com, so i just use camera to take it again, that's y its so blurry. :P That's the my bf with the kite.
When it was my turn, i got too close to the tree, the string got caught on it. Lucky we managed to get the kite down. The ironic thing is, the kite flew to the highest pt when the string was caught on the tree. Looks like the tree is the best kite flyer among us. :P
After that, we went cycling on a double bike. My bf cant cycle so i have to take the front. Its my first time at the front of a double bike. And i'm not a particularly gd cyclist either, it took me abt 25 mins before i more or less got the hang of it. And 10 mins before our 1 hr was up, we crashed. The basket they lent us to put my bag was at the front of the bike. It took most of burden, it got damage beyond repair, even the bike store uncle was stunned and waive off our offer to pay for it, i guess he kinda pity us. We were really lucky tho, we are more or less unharmed.
We decided that was enuf for a day after crashing, and went home after dinner.
Today was fun, but I think i'll like to take another long break from outdoor dates. :P
Oh ya, one last thing. I especially bought spf 130+ sunblock, and I still got sunburnt! and you wont believe the place I got sunburnt. Its a thin stretch of skin, right above my upper lip! Sigh... I thot I was careful enuf already.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
long time no see
Its been a while since my last blog. And tho I actually wanted to update about prac and all. I think I will forget all that and write something else.
I am becoming more and more tactless and blunt. I have no idea how to talk courteosly anymore. I cant stand it that I am being rude, even by my own standards. But I think I lost the ability to say things nicely and tactfully and still get what I mean across.
Maybe I should just practice smiling. And sit and smile at the world around me. Surely if I practise enough, I should be able to smile without offending anyone, right? If I dun talk, I dun need to be disappointed in myself.
Sigh... why do I only really like to write/type when I am moody? My blog is getting more and more depressing. Maybe I should delete it and start over. Or maybe I should consider practising how to clasp my hands elegantly, so I can stop myself for writing such stuff, while pretending nothing is wrong.
Nobody likes a gloomy person, and no one likes a person who doesnt like themselves. I noe all that. So why am I still unable, to make myself like me?
I wish I were like gold or silver. So someone can come along and melt me down, and mold me again. However, relying on others mean I am not likely to turn out the way I wanna be. Is it possible for anything to mold itself? Or is there someone whom I can trust, to mold me into what I wanna be? Lord pls grant me the strenght to change myself.
Sigh... I wish I can happily recite the poem from the p3 chinese textbook, where the kid happily concludes that it is most interesting to be a new me. Or maybe bcas kids arent suppose to noe how difficult that is, so they are able to happily recite it. Or they just havent thot abt that yet.
Goals are good, target setting is gd, but reaching it is not easy. You need to plan, prepare and practice before it can succeed, and for my case I always seem to stumble at the preparation stage. Lousy, cant even walk properly. Drop on all fours and proceed in a crawl. as long as you dun give up you can reach it some day. And since the center of gravity will be lower and its easy to balance on fours then on twos, maybe I can finally proceed, without stumbling too much.
Sheesh... comforting myself is fine and all, but I myself noe i am already crawling. If I dun manage to pick myself up soon, I am going to end up lying on the ground. Oh well, maybe I can try convince myself to try rolling in order to move forward then.
I am becoming more and more tactless and blunt. I have no idea how to talk courteosly anymore. I cant stand it that I am being rude, even by my own standards. But I think I lost the ability to say things nicely and tactfully and still get what I mean across.
Maybe I should just practice smiling. And sit and smile at the world around me. Surely if I practise enough, I should be able to smile without offending anyone, right? If I dun talk, I dun need to be disappointed in myself.
Sigh... why do I only really like to write/type when I am moody? My blog is getting more and more depressing. Maybe I should delete it and start over. Or maybe I should consider practising how to clasp my hands elegantly, so I can stop myself for writing such stuff, while pretending nothing is wrong.
Nobody likes a gloomy person, and no one likes a person who doesnt like themselves. I noe all that. So why am I still unable, to make myself like me?
I wish I were like gold or silver. So someone can come along and melt me down, and mold me again. However, relying on others mean I am not likely to turn out the way I wanna be. Is it possible for anything to mold itself? Or is there someone whom I can trust, to mold me into what I wanna be? Lord pls grant me the strenght to change myself.
Sigh... I wish I can happily recite the poem from the p3 chinese textbook, where the kid happily concludes that it is most interesting to be a new me. Or maybe bcas kids arent suppose to noe how difficult that is, so they are able to happily recite it. Or they just havent thot abt that yet.
Goals are good, target setting is gd, but reaching it is not easy. You need to plan, prepare and practice before it can succeed, and for my case I always seem to stumble at the preparation stage. Lousy, cant even walk properly. Drop on all fours and proceed in a crawl. as long as you dun give up you can reach it some day. And since the center of gravity will be lower and its easy to balance on fours then on twos, maybe I can finally proceed, without stumbling too much.
Sheesh... comforting myself is fine and all, but I myself noe i am already crawling. If I dun manage to pick myself up soon, I am going to end up lying on the ground. Oh well, maybe I can try convince myself to try rolling in order to move forward then.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
An Eventful Day
My practicum school invited trainees along to the flyer and I took up the offer with glee.... Flyer is a 30 mins ride, and costs $30. Since its free, why shd I pay a dollar a min to enjoy the view? Anyway... photos below...
After coming back, I actually felt rather energised. Therefore, I went on a rather long walk. I think I took more pictures then.
that's it
After coming back, I actually felt rather energised. Therefore, I went on a rather long walk. I think I took more pictures then.
that's it
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Tarot Reading
Astrology.com offered a read birthday tarot reading. Was interested so I claimed it. And the Moon card turned up again... accompanied by the Devil somemore. Guess its going to be a hell of a yr. Pls pardon the pun. Am brain dead now. I've been surviving on abt 4 hrs of slp a day since practicum starts. The only exception is friday and saturday nights, cas I tend to slp off most of sat and sun mornings.
Am used to slping ard midnight or 1 am while in hostel. So I cant seem to fall aslp earlier.
Hmm.... sigh... wanted to blog properly but my brain just died. Oh well, I gotta get back to work. Laters......
Am used to slping ard midnight or 1 am while in hostel. So I cant seem to fall aslp earlier.
Hmm.... sigh... wanted to blog properly but my brain just died. Oh well, I gotta get back to work. Laters......
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Graduation
Well... ok, not really. Tho it feels like one. Yesterday, I finish the last grp project I had to do for my University days and moved out from my room in the hostel. The night before that, my othello team threw a small, informal gdbye party for me. Though I'm really only leaving sch to go for practicum and I wont graduate till ard June. It feels like this phase of my life has already ended.
And so, as cliche and old fashion and mushy as this is going to be, I really would like to thank a few ppl.
Thanx to my ten classmates who were with me for 4 yrs. U people are the one who made my 4 yrs of lessons very enjoyable. Truly, I think it was very lucky that there are so few ppl taking our course, else we wouldnt have be such a close knitted grp. It was really fun being ur classmate, and I hope all of us will continue to keep in touch, even after we officially graduate and move on to become permanent teachers in different schs.
Special Thanx to my two gd frens, Jerine and JezC. We have been the trio in this odd number class for so long, and did so many projects together. Thank you for all the times we work hard together, for picking things up when I slack or mess up and for being more then merely gd group mates. Jerine, I'll see you on Monday, pls continue to look out for me. JezC, keep in touch, dun you dare disappear on me. Tho if i miss u enuf i think i will pop by the CC on Sunday to wait for you all to come down and meet u for lunch, hehe... Let's play table tennis again sometime soon.
Special Thanx as well to Kor Iceman who always looked after us. Keep in touch, I will be following ur blogs. ^^
Thanx to my othello team, both the seniors who have graduated before me and the current batch. U all noe i'm not really one for hall activites. But our team is really great. Thank you all for putting up with me and working hard with me. I dun regret a single moment or effort that I spent on the team, and each and everyone of u is someone I would be glad to call a fren (yes, even Rusdi :P). We won gold last IH! So proud of our team. Keep up the good work ppl, and may hall 15 othello team continue to reign. Hehe... :P
Special Thanx to Adi, Shimon and Anshu, who were in the same batch with me. Thanx to Adi for being a gd partner, and for assuming captain position in the first place. I'm really sry for being so weak to stress, and thank you for ur willingness to share the burden. Thank you, Shimon, for always being reliable support, even though u werent officially holding any post you always looked after the team. And tho no one really mentioned it, you were the one who found most of the new members who made up the current team. So it really thanx to you that we continue to have a team at all. Thanx to our joker, Anshu, even tho you are the one who provokes me the most. It was fun having you on our team. And truly, i'm really surprise when Adi told me you suggested the gift and all for me. That is truly a sweet gesture and i'm sry u weren't there so i can thank you personally. Tho its probably for the gd, since you prob make some wise crack at me if i tried to. :P
Special Thanx as well to Daniel, who took over my job as IC. Truly you absolutely outshine me. I was the IC for two yrs, but for the 1st year of that, I wasnt very gd at my job. I mainly relied on Wencong to tell me what to do. Yet you started picking up the role immediately, once you decided you would like to take over my post. And you did a gd job even before you officially became IC. I had no cause to worry at all after handing things over to you. At least, not about whether you can do your job. I was worried how were you gonna manage when you needed to pick up the slack. :P But you managed that as well. You're a much more capable IC than I was. Oh ya, make sure KC reads this. If he dares to neglect looking after you and not getting u a rm, I'll spam his email. :P
Belated Thanx to Zheng Xiang and Wencong, who taught me, looked after me and groomed me into leadership position on the team. Thank you both for being like Big Brothers to me, and I'm sry for not initiating any contact. >.< Maybe I shd email the link to this post to you all, But I could nv get any email thru to Zheng Xiang. I hoped both of you are doing well at ur jobs.
Okay, I got too ........ for my own liking. Urgh... gave myself goosebumps. Signing off. :P
And so, as cliche and old fashion and mushy as this is going to be, I really would like to thank a few ppl.
Thanx to my ten classmates who were with me for 4 yrs. U people are the one who made my 4 yrs of lessons very enjoyable. Truly, I think it was very lucky that there are so few ppl taking our course, else we wouldnt have be such a close knitted grp. It was really fun being ur classmate, and I hope all of us will continue to keep in touch, even after we officially graduate and move on to become permanent teachers in different schs.
Special Thanx to my two gd frens, Jerine and JezC. We have been the trio in this odd number class for so long, and did so many projects together. Thank you for all the times we work hard together, for picking things up when I slack or mess up and for being more then merely gd group mates. Jerine, I'll see you on Monday, pls continue to look out for me. JezC, keep in touch, dun you dare disappear on me. Tho if i miss u enuf i think i will pop by the CC on Sunday to wait for you all to come down and meet u for lunch, hehe... Let's play table tennis again sometime soon.
Special Thanx as well to Kor Iceman who always looked after us. Keep in touch, I will be following ur blogs. ^^
Thanx to my othello team, both the seniors who have graduated before me and the current batch. U all noe i'm not really one for hall activites. But our team is really great. Thank you all for putting up with me and working hard with me. I dun regret a single moment or effort that I spent on the team, and each and everyone of u is someone I would be glad to call a fren (yes, even Rusdi :P). We won gold last IH! So proud of our team. Keep up the good work ppl, and may hall 15 othello team continue to reign. Hehe... :P
Special Thanx to Adi, Shimon and Anshu, who were in the same batch with me. Thanx to Adi for being a gd partner, and for assuming captain position in the first place. I'm really sry for being so weak to stress, and thank you for ur willingness to share the burden. Thank you, Shimon, for always being reliable support, even though u werent officially holding any post you always looked after the team. And tho no one really mentioned it, you were the one who found most of the new members who made up the current team. So it really thanx to you that we continue to have a team at all. Thanx to our joker, Anshu, even tho you are the one who provokes me the most. It was fun having you on our team. And truly, i'm really surprise when Adi told me you suggested the gift and all for me. That is truly a sweet gesture and i'm sry u weren't there so i can thank you personally. Tho its probably for the gd, since you prob make some wise crack at me if i tried to. :P
Special Thanx as well to Daniel, who took over my job as IC. Truly you absolutely outshine me. I was the IC for two yrs, but for the 1st year of that, I wasnt very gd at my job. I mainly relied on Wencong to tell me what to do. Yet you started picking up the role immediately, once you decided you would like to take over my post. And you did a gd job even before you officially became IC. I had no cause to worry at all after handing things over to you. At least, not about whether you can do your job. I was worried how were you gonna manage when you needed to pick up the slack. :P But you managed that as well. You're a much more capable IC than I was. Oh ya, make sure KC reads this. If he dares to neglect looking after you and not getting u a rm, I'll spam his email. :P
Belated Thanx to Zheng Xiang and Wencong, who taught me, looked after me and groomed me into leadership position on the team. Thank you both for being like Big Brothers to me, and I'm sry for not initiating any contact. >.< Maybe I shd email the link to this post to you all, But I could nv get any email thru to Zheng Xiang. I hoped both of you are doing well at ur jobs.
Okay, I got too ........ for my own liking. Urgh... gave myself goosebumps. Signing off. :P
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Moon
People who follow my blog would prob remember a previous entry where i did a tarot card personality test and came up with the moon. Well... today I was looking up at the moon as I was on my way home, and it occurred to me I was like the moon in more than one way.
I'm sure the reason why the moon shines and changes shape is a commonly known fact but i'm going to be long-winded and explain again so pls bear with me. The moon does not produces its own light but rather acts like a mirror and reflects the light from the sun. When it is blocked by the earth, it appears to have changed its shape; on some days, we cant see the moon cas the earth has prevented it from reflecting any of the sun's rays.
In this aspect, I am very much like the moon. I am a person who doesnt have my own "light". When I can see the "sun" I am bright and happy, I appear to be confident and capable. Like how on the night of the full moon, the moon is round and glowing prettily, and people cant help but look up and admire it. When I am in "earth's" shadow, I am gloomy and depressing, I mope ard and whine and cant get anything done. Like a crescent moon which is easily hidden by the clouds and forgotten. There are also times where I fall into the sinkhole of depression and disappear, like on a night when no moon can be seen.
My moods are as plentiful as the phases of the moon, unfortunately they do not have such a regular pattern. And I must say its not hard to tell from recent entries, what kinda phase this "moon" is undergoing.
How ironic for me who has a bright and sunny name. For ppl who are confused, let me explain. My blogger name, dreamy shine, is partially taken from my english name Sunshine. See how ironic that is? To have a name that is bright and warm and happy but to be such a gloomy girl. Maybe I shd change my name, tho it doesnt really solve anything.
Oh well... tho my moods have no fixed pattern, but it does have as many phases as the moon. The night of full moon will come again and shine will shine once more.
I'm sure the reason why the moon shines and changes shape is a commonly known fact but i'm going to be long-winded and explain again so pls bear with me. The moon does not produces its own light but rather acts like a mirror and reflects the light from the sun. When it is blocked by the earth, it appears to have changed its shape; on some days, we cant see the moon cas the earth has prevented it from reflecting any of the sun's rays.
In this aspect, I am very much like the moon. I am a person who doesnt have my own "light". When I can see the "sun" I am bright and happy, I appear to be confident and capable. Like how on the night of the full moon, the moon is round and glowing prettily, and people cant help but look up and admire it. When I am in "earth's" shadow, I am gloomy and depressing, I mope ard and whine and cant get anything done. Like a crescent moon which is easily hidden by the clouds and forgotten. There are also times where I fall into the sinkhole of depression and disappear, like on a night when no moon can be seen.
My moods are as plentiful as the phases of the moon, unfortunately they do not have such a regular pattern. And I must say its not hard to tell from recent entries, what kinda phase this "moon" is undergoing.
How ironic for me who has a bright and sunny name. For ppl who are confused, let me explain. My blogger name, dreamy shine, is partially taken from my english name Sunshine. See how ironic that is? To have a name that is bright and warm and happy but to be such a gloomy girl. Maybe I shd change my name, tho it doesnt really solve anything.
Oh well... tho my moods have no fixed pattern, but it does have as many phases as the moon. The night of full moon will come again and shine will shine once more.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Lazy
The slacker bug has hit again and i think i wont be going home today. Am currently in hostel, was suppose to come back after lesson, clean a bit and pack up and go home, but i think i will be staying...
After all, no one is free to go with me to the flower festival at Sentosa tmr so why bother? *sulks* Besides, i'm slpy and its not like i dun have work to do. If i go home, my dad and sis will kick me ard like a football when i need to use comp (we have two comps at home and they each took one while i moved into hostel, so nice of u ppl), then end up saying i have my laptop at hostel anyway. Like hello? Like you mention, its at hostel, what am i supposed to do when i need to use the comp while at home then? Oh well, i am graduating soon, and my sis, who is waiting for 'A's result, will get the same stunt pulled on her after she moves into hostel. ;p
sigh.... k, stop slacking and blogging all this rubbish and go do something productive. To my fellow classmates: Jiayou! We got lots of stuff to hand up next week.
After all, no one is free to go with me to the flower festival at Sentosa tmr so why bother? *sulks* Besides, i'm slpy and its not like i dun have work to do. If i go home, my dad and sis will kick me ard like a football when i need to use comp (we have two comps at home and they each took one while i moved into hostel, so nice of u ppl), then end up saying i have my laptop at hostel anyway. Like hello? Like you mention, its at hostel, what am i supposed to do when i need to use the comp while at home then? Oh well, i am graduating soon, and my sis, who is waiting for 'A's result, will get the same stunt pulled on her after she moves into hostel. ;p
sigh.... k, stop slacking and blogging all this rubbish and go do something productive. To my fellow classmates: Jiayou! We got lots of stuff to hand up next week.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
A Balanced Diet
Must be the hardest thing to do in the world, especially when u dun cook.
Taken from health promotion board website regarding what u shd eat per day:
5-7 servings of rice and alternative
2 servings of fruit
2 servings of veg
2-3 servings of meat and alternatives, and one of the servings must be the alternatives (like egg, milk, cheese or tofu). they say 3 eggs make one serving, but u're advise not to eat more than 4 egg yolks a week.
Just thinking about following their advice makes me feel as if i trying to turn vegetarian. I dun have anything against vegetarians, but i dun want to be one, i enjoy eating meat. The fruit bit is going to be tough. Dun have the habit of eating even one serving per day. I did try... on and off... and cut fruits are easy to get at hostel. But must watch sugar intake oso and i dun feel like cutting down on coffee and tea. sigh.... tho i probably shd. They didnt make suggestion abt caffine intake either, so not helpful.
Hmm.... i wonder how much yohgurt makes up a serving... but eating that will mean taking a serving of meat.
Sigh.... i give up.... try again next time.
Taken from health promotion board website regarding what u shd eat per day:
5-7 servings of rice and alternative
2 servings of fruit
2 servings of veg
2-3 servings of meat and alternatives, and one of the servings must be the alternatives (like egg, milk, cheese or tofu). they say 3 eggs make one serving, but u're advise not to eat more than 4 egg yolks a week.
Just thinking about following their advice makes me feel as if i trying to turn vegetarian. I dun have anything against vegetarians, but i dun want to be one, i enjoy eating meat. The fruit bit is going to be tough. Dun have the habit of eating even one serving per day. I did try... on and off... and cut fruits are easy to get at hostel. But must watch sugar intake oso and i dun feel like cutting down on coffee and tea. sigh.... tho i probably shd. They didnt make suggestion abt caffine intake either, so not helpful.
Hmm.... i wonder how much yohgurt makes up a serving... but eating that will mean taking a serving of meat.
Sigh.... i give up.... try again next time.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Bardic Voices (2)
Not that anyone but me cares, but i now have the entire Bardic Voices Series!!! Including, A Cast of Corbies from the Bardic Choices Series!!! thanx to Jerainne who gave me the first book... i went and bought all the rest.... :P Oh ya. Finished reading the whole series btw, else i wont even be posting this. Will be reading still. :P
Wren, Lark, Robin, Heron, Magpie, Nightingale, Kestral, Linnet, Blackbird, Gannet, Thrush.... So many bird names.
Wren, Lark, Robin, Heron, Magpie, Nightingale, Kestral, Linnet, Blackbird, Gannet, Thrush.... So many bird names.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Frustated
Yes, I bloody well know that I am full of faults. God forbid if I even dare assume I am close to the average person. I am probably just a line away from being totally useless. There! Happy?
Even so, dun start a conversation pointing out my numerous faults, comparing me to a bunch of strangers who i have no idea who, then leave me hangging and waiting for ur next reply. Shit! I know you are pissed off but so am I and I wasnt the one who started it!!! And I only mentioned one thing i not happy about, what do you have to be pissed off about? My negative attitude? My excuses? Like you dun have the very same attitude, thanx a lot. How positive an attitude is ignoring me anyway. If you have to go off in the middle of an msn convo, how long does it take to type a "brb" before you leave anyway!!!!
You want to list my faults? fine! I'll do it for you.
1) obvious enuf, i curse when i am angry. tho i usually avoid using vulgarities.
2) I have a bloody short tempered and am super oversensitive. especially when compared to my exccessively dense bf.
3) i am absolutely undomesticated. Its a miracle my hostel is clean and tidy enuf for a human being. And i cant cook to save myself from straving. unless instant noodles at every meal works.
4) I am ppl shy and have absolutely no idea how to mingle.
5) I have no idea how to keep friends. I can count the number of old friends i have and am still in contact with with my hands.
6) I'm fat and lazy to excerise and have unhealthy dietary habits.
7) I'm stupid and lack common sense. When i teach i'll probably drive students crazy cas they are all smarter than me.
8) I'm pessimistic, negative and lack confidence and totally not living up to my bright and sunny name.
9) The older i am, the easier i cry. Even tho i know its a bloody waste of time and it doesnt solve anything. In fact, it probs make things worse as i have less time to fix it.
10) I am out of touch with the world. Dun like news, dun even like reality, will be happy to move right into one of my fantasy novels. I will prob be even more useless in their worlds, but at least it i'm surrounded by mythical non-humans and magic i might be a bit happier. who noes, maybe i'll have magic powers there, since im fair useless at anything here so i'm not even equipped to survive in this world.
11) I'm spoilt and pampered cost i nv really needed to support myself, tho i have tried to save and be reponsible for most of my own expenses since i started working. and trying to learn to do my share of household chores since i moved to hostel ( yes, i noe, ironic, isnt it?).
God save me from myself, cas i'll probably cause my own downfall more than anything else. Starting by publishing this post. But there, u see? U're already reading it. Wat the heck. I pushed, now let the roll downhill begin.
Even so, dun start a conversation pointing out my numerous faults, comparing me to a bunch of strangers who i have no idea who, then leave me hangging and waiting for ur next reply. Shit! I know you are pissed off but so am I and I wasnt the one who started it!!! And I only mentioned one thing i not happy about, what do you have to be pissed off about? My negative attitude? My excuses? Like you dun have the very same attitude, thanx a lot. How positive an attitude is ignoring me anyway. If you have to go off in the middle of an msn convo, how long does it take to type a "brb" before you leave anyway!!!!
You want to list my faults? fine! I'll do it for you.
1) obvious enuf, i curse when i am angry. tho i usually avoid using vulgarities.
2) I have a bloody short tempered and am super oversensitive. especially when compared to my exccessively dense bf.
3) i am absolutely undomesticated. Its a miracle my hostel is clean and tidy enuf for a human being. And i cant cook to save myself from straving. unless instant noodles at every meal works.
4) I am ppl shy and have absolutely no idea how to mingle.
5) I have no idea how to keep friends. I can count the number of old friends i have and am still in contact with with my hands.
6) I'm fat and lazy to excerise and have unhealthy dietary habits.
7) I'm stupid and lack common sense. When i teach i'll probably drive students crazy cas they are all smarter than me.
8) I'm pessimistic, negative and lack confidence and totally not living up to my bright and sunny name.
9) The older i am, the easier i cry. Even tho i know its a bloody waste of time and it doesnt solve anything. In fact, it probs make things worse as i have less time to fix it.
10) I am out of touch with the world. Dun like news, dun even like reality, will be happy to move right into one of my fantasy novels. I will prob be even more useless in their worlds, but at least it i'm surrounded by mythical non-humans and magic i might be a bit happier. who noes, maybe i'll have magic powers there, since im fair useless at anything here so i'm not even equipped to survive in this world.
11) I'm spoilt and pampered cost i nv really needed to support myself, tho i have tried to save and be reponsible for most of my own expenses since i started working. and trying to learn to do my share of household chores since i moved to hostel ( yes, i noe, ironic, isnt it?).
God save me from myself, cas i'll probably cause my own downfall more than anything else. Starting by publishing this post. But there, u see? U're already reading it. Wat the heck. I pushed, now let the roll downhill begin.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Me thinks too much...
A new yr, a new sem. But same old person with a head full of rubbish...
First day of sch. It ended with difficult hmk. I really shd be trying harder on my hmk. Sianz... I see notes i wanna slp. Besides... i got other stuff on my mind.
A new yr, a new start. But same old person with same old insecurities...
Am quite comfortable being same old me but am nv really happy with myself. Just like in the past. I really dun have much to be unhappy abt. But i feel like i getting more pestimistic as days, months and yrs go by... I am so not living up to my name.
I want to be the happy girl of my childhood again, who doesnt worry that she is fat or cares whether she looks gd. I wore the icky old fashioned thick rimmed black plastic specs happily and without being concerned that i looked like a nerd.
I want to be the contented dreamy teen who is sastisfied with life as long as she has books to read. I still escape by reading, but somehow, its either not working as well, or as i grow older, i am rooted to firmly in reality and life to be able to escape. I'm going to graduate and start work soon. Must be a responsible adult, handle my own stuff, and not hide in a corner and hopes watever it is goes away.
I want to be the junior college student who was surprised at how lucky she was to have her feelings requitted and roped into leadership position in the club. I want to taste confidence and sastifaction i had gained, when i managed to do my job tho i wasnt sure i was cut out to be in a position to lead, and once again to obtain the determination to do a better job in life than i managed b4.
I want to regain the passion i felt for teaching when i was doing relief, and the determination to grit my teeth to do my best tho its not a bed of roses.
A new yr, a new start. But thru all these yrs i've never really changed...
I am still the same loner character that stand at the edge of things, who never lets herself get too close.
Why do ppl make new yr resolutions anyway? Through all these years, i could nv stick to them. Let me wallow in my new yr laments and live my life as i have before. Caz no matter what u do, no matter how u live, life still passes u by whether u run or walk or stand still... So i shall continue my own half-hearted crawl with its spotaneos sprints, and let life decide whether it wants to place potholes, road bumps or grant me a even and nicely paved path.
First day of sch. It ended with difficult hmk. I really shd be trying harder on my hmk. Sianz... I see notes i wanna slp. Besides... i got other stuff on my mind.
A new yr, a new start. But same old person with same old insecurities...
Am quite comfortable being same old me but am nv really happy with myself. Just like in the past. I really dun have much to be unhappy abt. But i feel like i getting more pestimistic as days, months and yrs go by... I am so not living up to my name.
I want to be the happy girl of my childhood again, who doesnt worry that she is fat or cares whether she looks gd. I wore the icky old fashioned thick rimmed black plastic specs happily and without being concerned that i looked like a nerd.
I want to be the contented dreamy teen who is sastisfied with life as long as she has books to read. I still escape by reading, but somehow, its either not working as well, or as i grow older, i am rooted to firmly in reality and life to be able to escape. I'm going to graduate and start work soon. Must be a responsible adult, handle my own stuff, and not hide in a corner and hopes watever it is goes away.
I want to be the junior college student who was surprised at how lucky she was to have her feelings requitted and roped into leadership position in the club. I want to taste confidence and sastifaction i had gained, when i managed to do my job tho i wasnt sure i was cut out to be in a position to lead, and once again to obtain the determination to do a better job in life than i managed b4.
I want to regain the passion i felt for teaching when i was doing relief, and the determination to grit my teeth to do my best tho its not a bed of roses.
A new yr, a new start. But thru all these yrs i've never really changed...
I am still the same loner character that stand at the edge of things, who never lets herself get too close.
Why do ppl make new yr resolutions anyway? Through all these years, i could nv stick to them. Let me wallow in my new yr laments and live my life as i have before. Caz no matter what u do, no matter how u live, life still passes u by whether u run or walk or stand still... So i shall continue my own half-hearted crawl with its spotaneos sprints, and let life decide whether it wants to place potholes, road bumps or grant me a even and nicely paved path.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
OMG!!!
Crunchyroll died!!!! Wah!!!
All my lovely animes and hong kong dramas are gone!!! *cries*
Now the only thing left that can be watched is the latest Naruto. *sobs* I like naruto. But the anime is too slow, i prefer the manga. So not worth it!!!
I only watched 59 episodes of pawnshop no. 8 when there are over 100 episodes. And i wanna watch Earl and Fairy!! Sobs... I also watched to watch old animes.... those that were based on classic stories. I finished watching Anne of Green Gables and Black Brothers. But i havent finish Perrine, Sinbad, and i havent even started on Wizrd of Oz. I also wanted to watch the animes i watched as a kid. U noe those they used to show on channel 8 on saturday mornings? Like Mama is a 4th grader and The Genius Chef Boy.
Sigh.... Why!?! Crunchyroll come back!!!
All my lovely animes and hong kong dramas are gone!!! *cries*
Now the only thing left that can be watched is the latest Naruto. *sobs* I like naruto. But the anime is too slow, i prefer the manga. So not worth it!!!
I only watched 59 episodes of pawnshop no. 8 when there are over 100 episodes. And i wanna watch Earl and Fairy!! Sobs... I also watched to watch old animes.... those that were based on classic stories. I finished watching Anne of Green Gables and Black Brothers. But i havent finish Perrine, Sinbad, and i havent even started on Wizrd of Oz. I also wanted to watch the animes i watched as a kid. U noe those they used to show on channel 8 on saturday mornings? Like Mama is a 4th grader and The Genius Chef Boy.
Sigh.... Why!?! Crunchyroll come back!!!
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